And frankly, you feel like such a loser. And the thought of being a 'single mom' if we have kids. Everything was fantastic, his family adored me, and he told me that he is going to marry me.
The two of you can get married in the temple and live together forever for eternity. The first few months were wonderful we saw each other every few weeks, we live about miles from each other. The bottom line is that you are setting yourself up for difficult times ahead. I am becoming more lonely now than before. And what is even worse, is to think of him alone in our house Christmas Day while I work a 24 hr in-house call shift. The ideal, in my opinion, is that she discovers what we all know about the lies the church tells her. If you like her, and I'm assuming you do, I would suggest you continue the relationship and see how things pan out. Of course, your parents will care most.
Maybe watch "Going Clear" with her. I think it might be worth trying. Accept yourself, and feel God accepting you, and everything else will follow.
I also know that whenever exceptions are made, there are reasons. I thought I was very understanding and, while I did invite her out at other times, I was very clear that her studies were paramount and I wanted to support her as best as I could during this time. I am not sorry I married outside the LDS faith. For the first time in my life, at age twenty-seven, I am in a relationship that is good and loving and serious enough that I believe it may lead to marriage. Needless to say, his top choices were not near my family and friends.
